We often want to label people quickly. A friendship. A relationship. A red flag. A soulmate. But perhaps not every connection needs a name. Why do we want to know so quickly what someone will become in our lives?
At times, I wish I were less aware. Less sensitive. Less tuned in to every emotion, every atmosphere, every subtle shift in energy around me.
But then I wonder: would I really want to give it up?
How much pain do we need before we are willing to change? Sometimes I wonder why some people only change when life completely breaks them apart. I was one of those people.
I was literally looking into an empty space inside my head. There was absolutely nothing. My mind went completely blank. Usually, this state of mind is exactly what I wish for! Finally, peace in my head. But right now, I didn’t want this at all.
Freedom comes with a responsibility that can feel overwhelming. When nobody else gives you direction, you become 100% responsible for your own existence. It is always you, even when you don’t feel like it.
After taking the first major step in a life-long search for myself, I was left with many questions. At that time, I felt lost and confused. These are the five books that truly changed my life.
Staring at the breathtaking sunset from my top-floor apartment, I asked myself again: “Is this what life is about?” Then, a signal reached my “human antenna” multiple times in podcasts, conversations, and books: Ayahuasca.
I believe I was sensitive even before I was born. As a child, I was like a human antenna, always sensing the mood at home and elsewhere.
I arrived at the ‘Women Who Write’ workshop with excitement, not knowing ‘someone’ was waiting for me. During the first introductions, even before the event started, a few of us already said to each other, “No, I’m not a real writer.”
It seemed like such a simple question: what do you want to do? And yet I had no idea. There was nothing that felt available to me at the time. Not because it did not exist, but because I could not see it. I did not know what I wanted, and that made everything feel uncertain in a way that was difficult to sit with.
